Fiksi, no?

I don't write much fictions because,

contrary to popular belief,

unlike my husband, I don't daydream.

I just don't.


Fantasy?
Sometimes, only when when I'm in between states of consciousness. In transition between being awake and asleep.
Like, when I almost fall asleep- the stage 1 in sleep cycle or when I thought I'd awakened but I still can't control my body.

It might be dreams instead of fantasy. Or semi-dream if there is such thing.
If it's a daydream you can snap out of it voluntarily right?


Well my sleep-wake pattern is pretty bizzare. I should not compare mine with somebody else's.
Almost every morning (or afternoon, that is) I'll have this moment where I can't tell whether I am awake or not.
Sometimes I thought I am awake, but I can't move a muscle. I look around my room and pling! I'd wake up again, thinking what a weird dream that was. Then I'll realize that I can't move and I look around my room and pling! I'd wake up and the cycle goes on and on. Only after waking up to like, 5 or 6 layers of dreams then I really wake up.

It's exhausting, really. There was this time (during my industrial training) when I woke up to my husband's footstep in the room and as soon as I opened my eyes I told him about the dream I had and while he's responding there's this jolt and I woke up to another dream where someone was there by my bed and as soon as I finished relating the dream to them I'd wake up. It happened when I was taking an afternoon nap during lunch hour. Just a 15-minute shut eye and 5 layers of dream.
I went back to the office feeling more tired than I was earlier.


And what am I blabbering on and on about?
Oh yeah. Perhaps I don't daydream because my brain don't have what it takes. Or the capacity to daydream. Maybe I have too many dreams while I'm asleep.
Maybe I think too much.

I always overthink and overanalyzed. I could sit quietly just staring at nothing for almost an hour on end and not daydreaming. Not daydreaming but thinking.
Thinking about anything, anything at all.


I haven't always been like this. I used to daydream a lot when I was in high school. And yes I did write a lot of fictions and poetry and songs during those years. Those yesteryears.
God knows why but my creative juice flows like a river back then. My English was also very good I promise you. Was.


So yeah. That's the infamous Anoneemus for you.
I write articles. Non academic ones, of course.
I don't write fiction much. I do a little actually.

But I keep it unpublished. Mostly because of its adult content.

Ha ha
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